Mammamel
08-11-2007, 05:02 PM
I have been reading some stuff written about PH over the last year. Most of it is not kind so I will not bother to say where to find it. Please no PMs, it is time to put the last year to rest and move on with life.
Some of you here are “old timers” you have been with PH from its beginnings as the HBHW message board. You knew how it began and you hung on through the good times and the bad. You held your ground when stuff got dirty. You didn’t jump and run, you may have ducked and covered but you came out ready to support the site.
The last year hit us all and it hit hard. We lost many decent members, some admitted they just couldn’t take it anymore; the bitterness was just too hard to swallow. Some left us with a nasty taste, showing us how bad it could get, and those I am glad to see gone personally. Some made excuses and just sort of slithered off. Some just flat disappeared. Now please understand, those who left because they felt their time was better spent tending their families, I support 100%. PH is a web site; choosing family over PH is a no brainer in my book.
However, some stayed. Some decided we could pull out of this slump.
Some did hurt me when they left, they had claimed to be by my side and then they left, they had claimed to care for me as family, and now won’t even answer an email.
Once it became known I was sick, those who left and claimed to love me and PH did not even attempt to help us through. My illness, though I tried to keep it off site really, did hurt PH, because I could not even manage to control small issues anymore.
Some bad, awful decisions were made, some in my name others actually by me. Still all of you hung on. Waiting for the day when I regained control and began to fix issues others said I didn’t see, or didn’t care about.
Ladies, I saw and I cared. With tear filled thoughts I saw my hopes for a God filled site begin to crumble. I was paralyzed though, so all I could do was watch as friendships I cherished melted away to ashes. The more I tried to fix the worse things seemed to get. Mean while, even though I tried not to admit it, even to myself my illness changed me. I see things differently now. No, it is not because I had cancer, I honestly do not consider myself a cancer survivor. Because what I had to handle is not even close to what an actual cancer patient must deal with to survive.
Still, the anemia almost killed me. That began a process of thinking that is still evolving. PH did for a time become a hard place, a place of fear. While the rumors began way before anything was amiss (giggle, I was supposedly a banning queen, banning anyone who disagreed with me) things did get bad.
I apologize for what some have seen as my lack of action, or blindness.
It is my goal to take PH down its true path, as a site for women who wish to study, not debate and argue over, the scriptures. A place for Christian women to build each other up, with no worry over having to “prove” how right they are. I want coverers to feel safe as well as those who do not. I want SAHMs to know they are appreciated and welcome, and WAFHMs to know the same.
Ladies we are all women who claim Christ, as such we need to become like Him. He was forceful and direct but NEVER rude or hurtful.
It has been suggested in the past that I dump the “religion” rooms, the Bible study rooms and focus solely on frugality. What exactly is frugality? Is it not doing the best you can to be the best steward of what God has blessed you with? To me frugality with out God is like ice cream with out a freezer, a sticky mess.
No I do not intend to add new rules, unless they become totally needed. I do plan though to work on the tone. MY tone specifically and I hope that will carry through to the rest of the site. I am finally finding the inner lady I ought to be, and I hope you will continue to share the journey with me.
Some of you here are “old timers” you have been with PH from its beginnings as the HBHW message board. You knew how it began and you hung on through the good times and the bad. You held your ground when stuff got dirty. You didn’t jump and run, you may have ducked and covered but you came out ready to support the site.
The last year hit us all and it hit hard. We lost many decent members, some admitted they just couldn’t take it anymore; the bitterness was just too hard to swallow. Some left us with a nasty taste, showing us how bad it could get, and those I am glad to see gone personally. Some made excuses and just sort of slithered off. Some just flat disappeared. Now please understand, those who left because they felt their time was better spent tending their families, I support 100%. PH is a web site; choosing family over PH is a no brainer in my book.
However, some stayed. Some decided we could pull out of this slump.
Some did hurt me when they left, they had claimed to be by my side and then they left, they had claimed to care for me as family, and now won’t even answer an email.
Once it became known I was sick, those who left and claimed to love me and PH did not even attempt to help us through. My illness, though I tried to keep it off site really, did hurt PH, because I could not even manage to control small issues anymore.
Some bad, awful decisions were made, some in my name others actually by me. Still all of you hung on. Waiting for the day when I regained control and began to fix issues others said I didn’t see, or didn’t care about.
Ladies, I saw and I cared. With tear filled thoughts I saw my hopes for a God filled site begin to crumble. I was paralyzed though, so all I could do was watch as friendships I cherished melted away to ashes. The more I tried to fix the worse things seemed to get. Mean while, even though I tried not to admit it, even to myself my illness changed me. I see things differently now. No, it is not because I had cancer, I honestly do not consider myself a cancer survivor. Because what I had to handle is not even close to what an actual cancer patient must deal with to survive.
Still, the anemia almost killed me. That began a process of thinking that is still evolving. PH did for a time become a hard place, a place of fear. While the rumors began way before anything was amiss (giggle, I was supposedly a banning queen, banning anyone who disagreed with me) things did get bad.
I apologize for what some have seen as my lack of action, or blindness.
It is my goal to take PH down its true path, as a site for women who wish to study, not debate and argue over, the scriptures. A place for Christian women to build each other up, with no worry over having to “prove” how right they are. I want coverers to feel safe as well as those who do not. I want SAHMs to know they are appreciated and welcome, and WAFHMs to know the same.
Ladies we are all women who claim Christ, as such we need to become like Him. He was forceful and direct but NEVER rude or hurtful.
It has been suggested in the past that I dump the “religion” rooms, the Bible study rooms and focus solely on frugality. What exactly is frugality? Is it not doing the best you can to be the best steward of what God has blessed you with? To me frugality with out God is like ice cream with out a freezer, a sticky mess.
No I do not intend to add new rules, unless they become totally needed. I do plan though to work on the tone. MY tone specifically and I hope that will carry through to the rest of the site. I am finally finding the inner lady I ought to be, and I hope you will continue to share the journey with me.